i apologize - and only to myself - for the last entry. damn human emotions, they get me every time.

lani and josh, i'm sorry i didn't listen to you.

alyssa, thank you for putting it in a way that even irrational anger lauren (as frightful a beast as i've seen) could understand.

all the other truly wonderful people i am lucky to have in my life, thank you as well. i hope you know who you are.

to those who really know and love me, where would i be without you? you ground me; that is an amazing gift.

to those who only know me from second-hand sources and would prefer to hate me, what can i say? i'm not invincible. it bothers me. but what you think of me is essentially what you think of a person i haven't even met.

i have issues. i am blessed. i am hormonal. i am loved. i love, too. i don't care how you define it. it just is and i love that, too. some things don't matter and i'm affected by them anyway. i only hope it's the important things that continue to shape me, that they dwarf everything else.

as always, i just need a little perspective.