if i were spiritual at all, i would definitely be a deist.

if anyone out there is or has met someone who considers h(im/er)self a deist, let me know. you're cool. we could start a diaryring or something.

if i were spiritual at all.

i need to write more about this later, i'm really excited about paine and jefferson and allen and voltaire, i think my obsession with the sky is going somewhere, this is such good stuff, i'm looking forward to playing to the firmament...

i always wanted to be more spiritual, and i thought i ought to turn to eastern thought and mystical christianity, i thought my not pursuing such things was laziness... but all revealed religion is bunk.* i can never go back to that. god did not put words in your mouth and you can't tell me what he means. if i need something, i'll look around me and use my intellect.

(* i never, never ever mean to offend. though i truly believe that, you are more than entitled to your own beliefs.)

i have long considered myself an agnostic because i couldn't find any sense in religion, yet something about the world seemed to scream to me that there is something more than this. maybe it's just that i'm not a scientific person. but that sky is too damn beautiful, the system too damn perfect, and more universe is created every second.

i will never set foot in any church hoping to get something out of it and i will always say i don't know. but there's just something about all that possibility and energy, something i could never deny altogether...

if anything, deism. if nothing, agnosticism. i will never be presumptuous enough to call myself an atheist or a christian.

but always, always, a reader, observer and thinker.

i'm going to sit outside for a while, and feel a part of the great mystery.

good night. i love the all of you.

do you ever wonder what's at the end of outside? i want to feel closer now to the stars in the sky...
duncan sheik