i really want to write an entry about

• how much more psychotic my mom is becoming, even though she seems to have everything she wanted
• how wearing a prom dress for no reason and acting like a fool is the greatest self-esteem boost ever
• how close i feel to my friends right now, since we've had a couple five-second periods alone together
• how happy i am for lani and josh - though nothing's exactly the way you expect, i think they've both met some really cool people
• how much i'd really rather just live vicariously
• how completely sold i am on semester at sea
• how little i fucking care about stupid raaaaaaah...
• how i'm not ready to give in to reality just yet
• how spastic i've been lately over what kind of career i could live with
• september 11, patriotism, what still means anything and what i can still have pride in
• and in the interests of never putting anything to rest, how i feel about god and love today

but i'd just so much rather spend the free time in my day giggling at the most inane things with my best friends in the world. diaryland, how i miss you, but a girl's got to have priorities.

things are getting worse but i feel a lot better, and that's all that really matters to me
Counting Crows