i'm snowed out of marietta and soon to be snowed in here.

i have no immediately apparent way of getting back to school, but then i don't think i really want to.

i wish i was there with lani, though.

i don't think i ever want to set foot in that quad again.

i started looking at other colleges this weekend, as if i'd ever earnestly consider transferring.

antioch and oberlin are amazing, as are their women's studies programs and the towns they're situated in.

i wish i knew better what i really wanted two years ago.

and when the time comes for me to apply to grad school, i'm going to look completely irrelevant compared to kids coming from those programs.

but then, i have to think it's what you make of it. and ultimately my education is my responsibility.

so i've got this comm of loving research paper co-authorship. i'll do some volunteering this summer or maybe a small internship. i'll study abroad in the netherlands and do my research project. big internship that summer. honors thesis.

i'll make myself stand out.

in spite of that stupid, fucking school.

everything in spite of that stupid fucking school.