ghost world has left me in a strange mood.

as has thinking high school thoughts with college people.

as has scorning all of high school while reminiscing about something that never quite was.

as has wishing everything were different.

as has wondering about labels, which one i'm trying on now.

i think some of the unidentifiable, inexplicable emotions i have are caused by memories of people i haven't met yet.

i meant to elaborate on that, but i guess the idea orb left me.

astro- ..what?

things overlap too much for me to understand anything. the least remarkable and easiest to explain being a car with a 'the man' static sticker passing me as ben folds wondered 'how's it feel to be the man?'

stranger than that.

it is the uglier things i've said lately that i remember and dislike.

but i want to blame someone else for the way i feel tonight, just one more time.

(i think i'm happy, though.)

everywhere i go, damn there i am
and i just wanna walk away
won't you let me walk away sometimes

(my words are inadequate and i'm still pulling all the same shit. i always mean a lot more and a lot less than i ever say. try to believe the things that sound better. you know what, i'm weird.)

'..complaining about things that will never change and will never be that bad..'

that's what i meant to say.

no more addendums.