i'm updating half because it's been four days and i should, and half because i need to be studying for my history midterm and i shouldn't. works for me.

it's that time again... midterms are just about over and it's time to register for next semester. which should be a lot less stressful, but if you know me, you should know these are life-or-death decisions. each semester i alter my life plans and make my schedule out anew. halfway through that schedule, i realize it's not for me, and start all over again. it's my cross to bear.

so in light of my providence-centered outlook and instantaneous decision to write for the sojourner, it makes sense to start working toward a writing certificate again, or even a journalism minor. which adds too many possibilities to my already too-long list of courses i want to take. i change my schedule daily; here's the lineup for the night:

mwf
9:00 psychology 101
10:00 spanish 202
11:00 the naked person (gender studies 150)

tth
9:30 concepts of gender (english 235)
11:00 u.s. foreign policy (poli sci 207)
2:30 writing for media (mass media 207)

i know it sounds ridiculous, but i have begin to plan my life around the providence dream, albeit in small and very reversible ways, if need be. but the thing is, i don't think the need will be. i know everything we've discussed is possible - they're realistic goals. maybe my main concern is that by the end of senior year my friends will grow a life and make adult plans, which i can almost guarantee i won't. lani and i, at least, are in it for the long haul, i think. and if it comes to it, i will go to providence alone. because i can't believe it won't happen. i need a plan; otherwise, like lani said earlier, i'd just be floundering around. i need to feel like i'm doing something important, i need my neverending desires to be satisfied. i need a plan. i'll find all that in providence...

now, i'm going to force myself to study until my eyelids refuse to stay open. and lani and i definitely share a brain - she beat me to the study lounge. if i'm not around in the morning, make sure i didn't fall asleep up there, will ya? ;)