i've been having this irrational, out-of-nowhere fear lately that i can't have children. um, yeah, crazy. not that i'm thinking about children at all right now, i mean, that thought is so off on the horizon i can't even see it. but working with kids, seeing baby emma... i want that someday. doesn't everyone just assume they can? some people can't. this is probably some lame reaction to what happened to my sister, and the byproduct of - yes, the thosepeople curse - thinking too much. all i have to back it up is suddenly hearing that women who stay on the pill longer have a harder time conceiving, and by the time i'm ready to have children i'll have been on the pill almost ten years. i guess i'll just have to talk to my doctor when i see him next and stop being such a raving psychopath.