I don't have the time, patience or interest to make this New Year's entry the hoopla I usually do. Just the barest bones of the slightly more cynical (?) entry I might have written:

This year, I'm done with labels completely. It is so silly how someone as committed to freedom and change as I am has adopted definitions so willingly.

I have called myself asexual for nearly a year. This is not to say that I feel differently about it all now, but I want to shed the specific label. I prefer to be single, and I haven't ever related to another person on a sexual level. It is not a connection that makes sense to me. But what point is there in saying 'these feelings will always be foreign to me; such a relationship is impossible for me'? I will not say that. I am leaving my relationships open. I will allow myself to simply be what I am.

Naturally, then, I also find self-improving resolutions to be ridiculous. I have been trying to grow a work ethic for years now, and it's finally clear it's probably not going to happen, because it's not me. I'm lazy. I have no ambition. I'd rather face that and be that now.

It also occurs to me that any time I might have spent trying to become 'normal' has been pointless. I should instead have put my efforts into trying to appear normal. That seems clear.

This year, I am going to become a fully realized nomadic subject, which is to say, nothing at all.

This is perhaps a bigger shift than you or I realize.

Anyway, as to New Year's in the world outside my head. I had quite a good time with Lani this morning, talking over breakfast brought by the finest server in all the land. We then went to see The Phantom of the Opera, which is a very exciting spectacle, and I quite recommend it. And dears, nothing in this world is better than having someone in your life who (among many other things) laughs at the same inappropriate parts of movies for the exact same reasons.

Tonight will be spent with just my mother and brother, watching movies and playing poker and eating the snacks I'm putting way too much effort into making. For some reason I've decided to make tonight a relatively large affair, and I hope it all goes well.

Hey, have a happy new year, friends.