Feverishly stealing away to Thomas Hall at 9pm in the coat Josh says makes me look like Virginia Woolf — I do not feel sane at the moment.

(Taped the part of the debate I missed, promise.)

I had suddenly remembered that the Jackie midterms would be waiting outside her office — felt I had to get it tonight because somehow, in my mind, the grade determines just how to word the email I'd have to send to her requesting a meeting later.

(Preregistration is next week already???)

At first I thought it said 79%. That is what I deserved. I felt my performance was good though not excellent if it had not been open book open note; as it was, it was mediocre at best. No. 97%. Jackie is not a professor you can sneak bullshit by. Yet somehow there is nothing I can do to kill my A in her supposedly soul-killing capstone class.

I have done nothing all night, I am the lamest student ever, and I cannot fail.

Okay, and. I hate George Bush and I hate John Kerry. Not only am I unexcited by him. Not only does he not represent my political beliefs. I hate him. How can I justify voting for him? If I have no choice but Bush or Kerry, I have no choice at all; there is no point in voting. My candidate cannot get on the Ohio ballot. I just feel so dirty.

The only thing I respond to, the only thing for which I'll come when called is AVEN. This is important. Nothing else feels that way right now.

But I love, love, love Dr. O' — she completely understands and agrees about the glue trap thing, and there will be no more of that. And she was so wonderful and supportive about it like she is, and, grumble as I might, I would do just about any ridiculous task she asks. But :( going into preregistration mode, I don't think she's teaching Notable American Women next spring, and that crushes me.

Must do something calming. Yes, preregistration mode. (The 18th! Seriously, how did that escape my notice?) Okay, I want —

Women in the Visual Arts MWF 9 (Lani and Josh, please confirm for me that that would be a terrible idea)
Brit Lit II TTH 11 (must have one last DHS class)
French 102 MWF 11
History of Religion in the US MWF 9 (nevermind, that solves the art history dilemma)
Modern British History TTH 11 (if Notable American Women indeed is not offered)
Modern Political Thought MWF 2
Women & US Politics M 6:30 (if Notable American Women indeed is not offered, for a different reason that is not interesting to you)
Human Sexuality TTH 1 (I really do not care if I complete the gender studies minor or not)

Huh. What a crap semester this is turning out to be. I'm holding out hope on NAM because Dr O's only down for three courses; will have to ask her about that. If not, I will either have to give up the DHS course or take a history course that doesn't interest me in the least. And Dr K has said she's doing Lesbians in Film though it be not on the schedule, but I just can't take another course with her. Love her as I do, her classes are mind-numbing.

So we're looking at... French, Modern Political Thought, History of Religion in the US, some other history course, and Brit Lit/Human Sexuality/Women in Politics, depending.

Ehh.