I know you're tired of hearing about this whole deer-in-headlights thing I've got going on over this paper. Don't worry. It's due tomorrow, so either way, it's almost over.

But oh.. my.. dear..god, what is wrong with me? I feel like I am having a bit of a mental crisis, though it doesn't feel like it. I feel either 'blah' or 'okay.' That is the full range of my emotions, lately. Which should be enough steam to juuuust wriiiite it, don't you think? I've felt much worse at the end of the semester. I check with my head and it says, 'yeah, doing fine up here.' But something's just not working...

This is beyond ridiculous. I cannot believe what I'm doing. I have to have to have to just do this or it's all over. I am trying not to entertain thoughts of just not doing it. But the hours keep creeping by, and I'm still sitting here, and just looking at the Word document makes me cringe, and one way or another, in 26 hours it's going to be over.

What the fuck am I doing? I feel I am having a bit of a breakdown, only it doesn't feel like it, which concerns me more. I just don't care. This is well within my ability, and I'm going to care again in a month, so just do it, but I'm not, and I'm annoying you and myself now.. I just.. ugh, okay, I'm going to try to look at that Word document again.

Won't you look at me, I'm crazy, but I get the job done
Yeah I'm crazy but I get the job done
Ben Folds Five