I want to hurt myself because I just deleted my stupid entry I've been updating continuously and stupidly all day just to add this stupid link about some mysterious scholarship I didn't know I was awarded and now I'm all ugh, over nothing, I've been so weird lately.

Honestly, though, was anyone gonna tell me? And where is my mysterious money?

(This is why it pays, evidently literally, to be supremely narcissistic and google your own name all the time.)

(PS I guess it's not such a weird strange thing, I guess this is where I got the Sisler-McFawn scholarship last year, so it's probably a renewal of that -- which I don't deserve because it took me a freakishly long time to write a simple thank-you letter -- but how very strange that the Beacon knew before I did.)

(PS I want to reconstruct that entry, but I'm really just bored and pathetic.)