lani, i'm sure you will figure out what is best for you. and this will all work out for the best. but if he won't cooperate, there is no neat resolution or closure. it's absolutely unfair, after everything.. but.. yeah. it pretty much sucks. :

the moog is so excited that i'm coming home this weekend, and i am too now. but i'm not going to have any chance to get homesick, because i'll have to go home again every other week for the rest of the semester: spring break, chad's birthday party, janice's baby shower, rachel's bridal shower. maaaan! but i'm starting not to mind the back and forth as much.

i'm quickly receding back into my 11-year-old world of torvill and dean obsessiveness... god, that's so long ago...

yep...

Name: lauren marie

Nicknames: i think i've come to hate this question simply because i feel guilty i've forgotten most of them..

Age: 19

When should we send birthday presents? today! every day! :)

Star sign: scorpio

Resident of: nowhere in particular

Family: moogie, steven, mel, janice, yay for new sister rachel, chad you're old news hehe; stimpy rocko ozzie; dad, pam

Eye Colour: grey

Hair Colour: red, possibly back to natural, i can never tell..

Height: 5'5" because i like that better than what dr loftus' data tells me..

Most overused word: my mom doesn't even say anything when i say 'fuck' anymore... crossing another line toward adulthood.

Out of the following words which is best? – monkey, poo or sponge: haven't you always wanted a monkey?

Your ambition as a five-year-old: only three careers exist to 5-year-olds - teacher, doctor, lawyer - i wanted to be all at some point.

Your ambition as a ten-year-old: be rich, live in a mansion, move to england and have torvill and dean adopt me. heeeeh...

Your ambition as a fifteen-year-old: to be a famous screenwriter with a cool apartment. to find my 'soulmate.'

Your ambition as a twenty-year-old: to never actually become a twenty-year-old.. so old.. live in washington dc, i don't really care what i'm doing. have a cool apartment and be happy and doing something fulfilling.

Favourite song: dar williams the ocean, at the moment..

Favourite album: sheryl crow globe sessions..

Favourite Possesion: my old journals and photo albums, and yes, always, the large manilla folder stuffed with notes from him.

Favourite Food: okay i was just spending way too much time trying to think up an answer.

Favourite Drink: mint chocolate chip snowflake at borders. yay, i'll be getting one this weekend!

Favourite fruit: my dear moogie, trying to force me to eat a piece a day.. then she shouldn't send me red apples..

Favourite Film: i have a need to see the pride and prejudice miniseries again.. six hours of colin firth brooding and smouldering, what more do you want?

Favourite Shop: borders borders, i could live there. i'd like to work there this summer...

Favourite thing to wear: pajama pants all the time.

Favourite website: this one!

Favourite flower: daisy

If you could have revenge on one person in your life, who would it be? i don't want revenge on anyone.. i'm happy now, what would be the point?

How would you describe yourself in a dating agency ad? weak-willed and stupid, silly, obsessive, but.. um.. yeah.

Where would you most like to visit? washington dc. englandscotlandireland, australia, all of europe.. i want to go to russia with who the hell is bob..

What makes you happy? you.

If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be? my obsessive behavior, my laziness.