i truly intended to go to bed, but rebecca is keeping me up, detailing the conversation she's having with a mexican man while playing yahoo pool, pretending she does porn movies to put herself through college ... which, for all i know, could be the case. ;) so why not put up yet another pointless entry tonight?

1.do you shave? only when i want to stay in the shower. i mean, armpits are daily, but there really isn't much point in doing the legs.

2.what do you shave? oh. like i said.

3.Why? because the pits will smell otherwise, if you must know, and the legs are a pretense to stay in hotwatergoodness.

(beck leaves me at this point...with like 200 questions to go. right. thanks.)

4.what colour is your razor? purple with silver sparkles.

5.what size is your bed? the size of an extra-long single, but the mattress is a regular single. annoying in so many ways.

6.do you like it? it serves its purpose, and it's better than what i have at home now since my brother's temporarily hijacked my own bed.

7.If you woke up one morning and found out you were going to stay in the body you have now for the rest of your life, what would you think? would you know? wouldn't you have to wait until you were a couple years older for it to dawn on you?

8. letter or e-mail? letters, definitely. i've lost the one person i could really write letters to, but i'm none the worse for it.

9.if world war III broke out, what would you say? oh, so we just gave it a new name, huh?

10.which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most? wow, five? i don't know if i can think of five. mom. becky. misti. hehe... jess, maybe. and lani right now; hopefully that will continue :)

11.what's something a guy will wear that'll turn you off? the same thing he wore yesterday.

12. what's something a guy will wear that'll turn you on? a black cape (think snape!) or top hat and tails. you don't need to tell me i'm weird!.

13. what do you think of soulmates? that used to be all i could believe in, and now i don't, but i've got other things. true love? probably, but i don't think we all have one person on earth we were destined to be with.

14.florida or cali? too young to remember when i was in florida, but i think i'd say california anyway. i loved it there - perfect weather in december, very friendly people.

15.is the world screwed? i don't think i'd bother to stay in it if i thought so.

16.is cussing a neccesity in life? i'm sure i could do just as well without it, but it is sometimes a useful way to get your point across.

17.what's something you can't live without? my parents and my friends.

18.can you live without the microwave? i was so sure i wouldn't need a microwave in my room. 'don't worry about it, i can go downstairs and use the one in the kitchen.' very glad my mom went and bought one anyway.

19.You have this uh, erotic dream about your friend of the opp. sex. how do you act and feel around that friend the next day? i've never had an erotic dream, let alone involving a friend.. but i think i can say that would be easier than facing a certain friend for an entirely other reason now.

20.would you rather be rich with 15 spoiled brats or just barely making it with a dog? barely making it, because i hate children to start with!

21. how's your schoolwork for you right now? much easier than last semester. i really like all my classes, and i have much fewer papers and large projects.

22.what's something someone's done to make you hold a grudge against them? put me through hell for nearly three years, but we don't need to go there now. but it's not even a grudge anymore...i've really let it go.

23.Favorite weather? not sunny because the sun is evil - i'm actually allergic to it and macular degeneration runs in my family - but not cloudy either; about 65 degrees.

24.what's one look trait that attracts you to a guy? their voice, i think; i don't know how to describe a good voice, but the sexiest one by far would be my alan rickman :)

25.what's one personality trait that attracts you to a guy? i don't know if spelling things correctly and using proper grammar is part of one's personality, but i could never tolerate a guy without that.

26.who's phone number are you hoping to get? Alan Rickman..But, I had this dream once where I got David Duchovny's...When I woke up I was sad.<---at first i was really weirded out that this person i don't know also has a thang for alan, but then i realized i found her from my snape diaryring, so i guess that only makes sense. i'll go with ar, 'cause anyone i meet, i can probably get their number from the student directory.

27.do you beleive in ghosts? why or why not? i don't think i do, but i never like to make definitive statements on matters like this.

28.what time did you sleep last night? around 1:30

29.which guy/girl do you wish to be with RIGHT now? i don't have a crush or anything right now, if that's what you mean...or i could pretend i do and say matt. but he hasn't imed me in the last few days or responded to my last two, so i think i finally got him to get over me :( aww, matt, when i said no like 8 trillion times and got really pissed the last time you asked, i didn't actually mean no, wasn't that clear? maybe i should work on that.

30.is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf? if it doesn't go anywhere, sometimes it's just fun. and this can be done. i flirt a lot, and it's never gone anywhere. aaahahaha. right.

31.would you rather be married in venice, italy, or honolulu, hawaii? i used to want to have my honeymoon in venice, actually, back when i was twelve and planned those things out, but then in a special for the story of us (very good cliche movie) michelle pfeiffer said it was smelly. hawaii is too beachy for me. i want to be married outdoors, and if i could really pick, i'd want it to be in ireland.

32.would you rather eat sandwiches or pasta for the rest of your life? pasta, i think. but i get really tired of the same thing, i'd end up starving.

33.How would you feel if you got a flower? excited to tape another thing to my wall, where everything anyone gives me goes, no matter how inappropriate or out of place. there must be no white space!

34.do you want to drop school? and then do what?

35.what do you think of the quote "eyes are the passageways into the soul" ? i think that's often true.

36.What do you think of sleep? my favorite pastime. i wish i had enjoyed the chance to take naps back when i was a young'un...

37.if you had the chance to slow down your growth now and live to 500 years but it's like a 50 year old body by then, would you go for it? if i understand you..when i am 500 i will look 50? and until then i age very slowly? is there a downside to this scenario? sounds good to me.

38.What is the one situation you can absolutely not lie in? i'm never a good liar, but i don't seem like the kind of person who would lie so i can usually get away with it anyway.

39.Are you a procrastinator? and how.

40.waffles or pancakes? i really enjoy both. especially if blueberry. but i like them plain - no butter or syrup :)

41.what's an annoying trait about you? i'm not a very personable person, if you know what i mean.

42.football or rugby? quidditch! lol

43. hat or visor? scarf.

44.ice skating or rollerblading? i was so supposed to go ice skating today! could have seen beloved rosie, and possibly resurrected something with matt. but no. pout.

45.pizza or burgers? i like both.

46.what colour is your jacket? there are 3 i really like. most often my dark grey one. also a brown corduroy and a light grey one.

47.what's something you ALWAYS have on you? chapstick and my school id.

48.what do you think of guys with nailpolishes? weird but why not.

49.do you stay in bed thinking or do you fall alseep in 5 seconds? i lay in bed thinking. this is my favorite thing. i would be upset if i fell asleep right away and didn't get to think up fictions or sort through my daily problems.

50. who do you want to take with you to the prom? i really wanted to go back to the prom this year. back when i was demented and blind.

51. your bf/gf gets drunk at a party. in their state of drunkness, they babble about that one time they fooled around with someone else while you were together. they wake up the next morning with a slight memory that did something stupid. what do you do? that would probably be the end of us, unless we've been together a really long time. if i've been alone this long it's for a really good, really dumb reason and it's called 'my standards' and i'm not going to be with a guy that gets that drunk, and certainly not one who fools around with other chicks.

52.is cyber sex considered cheating? i think in most cases i would say so.

53.are you happy? most of the time i am very happy, i'm not sure if it seems that way. i'm just always looking for more happy out there.

54.favorite berries? blue or rasp.

55.what's one facial feature you'd like to change about yourself? my nose. it's big and pudgy and always oily, when everything else on my face is dry...

56.do you take a shower after a bath? the point of that would be...?

57.what was the last thing you cried over or got teary about? the last time i actually cried was when i made my mom start smoking again and she was screaming at me.

58.chalk or crayons? crayons.

59.how's you happiness level right now? i'm more tired than anything else, but i'm pretty much happy and just a little bit wary.

60. coffee or tea? the mint chocolate chip snowflake at borders.

61.wouldn't you just love to hug someone right now? aww...josh is just the best bearhugger... or my mom, i miss her.

62.who was the last person who complimented you? erin said i was a jackass, i think she meant that in the good way ;)

63.what's wrong with your school? all the meal plans are a rip off. wacko speech professors.

64.do you know what an aphrodisiac is? you're not gonna fool me on vocabulary. what a weak one to try.

65.who do you wish you could kiss? no one, really..

66.movies at home or in a theater? theater, definitely. it's the only thing my friends and i could ever think to do, so i had better like it.

67.wanna live in a castle? i used to dream of living in a castle/mansion... i more envision myself in a nice apartment for the rest of my life, against kreiner's best wishes.

69.(guys) what's something about girls you don't get? i'm gonna answer that anyway. i don't get how girls can be so totally wrapped up in a guy, either one particular guy or the whole of guydom. it's dumb.

70.it someone said you were hot, what would you think? i would not believe them. matt tried to tell me i was hot, and that was just another good reason why he obviously didn't know me at all. crazy i am.

71. you go to your bf/gf's house for the first time and in his/her room, and everywhere is... pics of you. what do you think? suspicious, scared. nothing nice is a compliment to me.

72.what happens when you hear the word christmas? i..hate..christmas.

73.does being a psycho sound appealing? from experience i can tell you it is.

74.what food brings back good memories? frozen bread. really.

75.do you talk to yourself? not as a matter of course, but i guess i have.

76.sun or moon? Moon. it's pretty and it won't cause me to be blind by the time i hit middle age.

77.what's your opinion on love? wishing i could base this deep thought on experience: it's nice. i really think i could figure out what healthy love is someday, and it would be nice.

78.what's a happy memory of a time you've spent with the opp. sex? the only person i could really talk about here is him, and i don't want to.

79.do you think you can afford to lose weight? no actually i could afford to gain 5-10 pounds. i'm scaring my poor little mother...

80.if you could dye your hair any colour, what would you dye it? i always wanted to go lighter red, but it doesn't take, and i don't want to bleach it. so i usually go with something with a purple tint to it.

81.what's the nicest thing any one has ever told you? i could say it was something like 'i love you, and i could never live without you' but then i'd be reminded that he is living without me and it's all very ugly and guilt ridden, so i won't say that.

82.how was the survey? if i hadn't been so keen on going to sleep, i would admit to you it was the best survey i'd done in awhile, with many new quesitons. a treat. :)